Is it possible for someone who is very shy to feel very confident at the same time?

Yes.


Only if the shy person is around people who know nothing about her.



P.s This shyness is killing me. 😖😖

Friday

So it's friday.
While the guys went to the mosque for Jumaah prayer, the ladies (me and mum) went to weekly Tamu (market) for groceries.

While we were at the Tamu, mum made some jokes and I couldnt help but smile and laugh, almost all the time. Usually I would control myself from smiling and laughing in public too much because people might look at me. It's not that I am beautiful when smiling or whatnot that will make people want to look at me (=.=") . NO! That's just how I, who is such an introvert and a very shy person, feel whenever I am in public. I often feel like hiding everytime I see people's eyes are on me. Padahal it was nothing pun. Sometimes, it's not that they are looking at me; they just happened to be looking at the same direction where I was standing or sitting. And most of the time, NO ONE is actually looking at me. It's just my disease.

But today, I chose to be different. I chose to be courageous (LOL). So I just smiled and laughed and just ignored those eyes. I felt relieved and somehow satisfied with myself for fighting the irrelevant shyness in me.

However... the day I chose to be courageous to smile and laugh cheerfully in public was the day
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a chili flake got stuck on my teeth (ㅠ.ㅠ)

There goes my maruah *sobs*,

And say Hello to a thousand more stacks of irrelevant shyness.

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Life has been really... Well, waiting is not fun at all but I know I gotta cherish this free time while I still can. There are certainly good reasons behind this waiting game, I believe :)
(oh. What am i waiting for? A proposal, that is life-changing. A proposal from the government to work as a teacher)

So as I was scrolling down FB newsfeed, I saw an advertisement which was annoying yet 'funny' at the same time. The phrase highlighted was 'jadi wanita BENAR'. I was like was this product meant for tomboys? Oh wait. No. It is for real women. Flat-chested women. So all this while, those flat-chested ladies are not real ladies? So could it be said that those gym guys who have bigger chests are real 'ladies' then? *sigh*

Whats with this mindset that 'small' is not real and 'dark' is ugly (instant fair beauty product is a hot stuff too now).

Some people really need some thorough brainwashing for instilling this wrong way of thinking in people (especially the young generation); for ruining ones' self esteem and confidence.